Sunday, November 08, 2009

minsan ako'y naging bata

masaya ako pag umuulan. parang may matinding nostalgia siyang dala. those days na parang wala kang problema. mga panahong iniisip mo lang kung ano'ng next episode ng batibot, o ano'ng kwento ni kuya bodjie?

tama, kahit bata may issues din. nag-eevolve lang yan. depende sa age, nagle-level up din ang tao, parang ragnarok lang. pahirap ng pahirap ang kalaban.

pero alam mo, madali lang naman kalaban ang problema. isipin mo na lang, maraming mas naghihirap at nagdurusa. kaya tarantado ka kung mas iniisip mong kawawa ka. mas pathetic ka kung magpapakamatay ka. ang sarap-sarap ng buhay, itatapon mo lang bigla?

oh well, tungkol sa ulan. hmm last week ko pang pending ito nang minsan ay napag-usapan namin ni new-found friend (nff) anna ang ulan. tama, ulan nga. kung bakit masarap maligo sa ulan, at kung bakit nakakatakot ang ulan.

si ondoy at ang kanyang injustice league ang nagpasimuno ng lahat ng kapraningan sa ulan. dahil sa disaster na dinala niya, para nang armageddon (ispel?) ang typhoon sa balita.

pero nung ako'y musmos pa lamang, madalas akong maligo sa ulan. paborito ko nung bata ako, kasama sina pareng junior, jeff, jayjay, carlo, jeff, michael, buknoy, moy, bodjie, etc. na naliligo, naglalaro ng barilan, naghahanap ng bayawak sa gubat, naninirador ng isda sa ilog, at nagba-bike - mga aktibidades habang umuulan.

nung mas musmos pa ako, madalas kaming maligo sa ulan, at andun kami lagi sa ilalim ng bubong kung saan malakas ang bagsak ng tubig, parang falls.

noond high school, madalas pa rin akong maligo sa ulan. kaso umaakyat ako sa bubong namin at nagdaydream. wala pa sa isip ko ang love love na yan. gusto ko lang noon ng simple at payak na buhay.

college, sa totoo lang, namiss ko ang paliligo ulan. dream namin ng ex ko gawin un. kaso mahirap sa sitwasyon. ang sweet sana kung nagawan ko ng paraan. hayaan na. hindi ko ata siya nagawa noong college.

pero ngayon, ginagawa ko pa rin siya. ilang beses ko siyang ginawa ngayong taon na ito. naligo ako noon sa ulan. natatandaan ko noong bata na nakakagaling ng sakit ang unang unan ng mayo, ayon sa mga matatanda. ginawa ko yun. may mga panahon ding nakahiga ako sa sahig ng terrace habang naliligo sa ulan.

para sa akin, ang bawat patak ng ulan sa mukha ay simpleng paalala na masarap mabuhay. ang sarap-sarap ng naging buhay ko noon. ang sarap balikan ng mga tawa't hagik-hik ng mga panahong minsa'y tayo'y naging bata.

para sa iba, hindi na nila magagawa ang mga bagay nagpapa-alala ng kabataan nila. bukod sa dagat, ako, marami pang iba. ito marahil ang dahilan kung bakit para akong si peter pan. habambuhay akong magiging bata para sa sarili ko.

sa ngayon habang sinusulat ko ito, naalala ko kung paano ako tumawa noon :) ang sarap :)

Saturday, November 07, 2009

uso pa ba ang love love na yan?

minsan hindi mo alam, at hindi mo rin masabi kung ano ba talaga ang gusto mo sa buhay? gusto mo ba ng kapareha? gusto mo ba ng trabahong yayaman ka bigla, pero hindi ka masaya? gusto mo bang maging taong grasa? madami eh! anak ng tokwa.

dahil dyan, pag-usapan naman natin ang love... ang labo ng intro!

lately medyo marami akong naririnig na love problems. may kakabreak lang dahil yung partner ay sumama sa iba. may isa namang hindi alam kung paano mag-grow sa relationship, kaya nalilito kung tama bang ituloy o tama bang itigil. may isa namang kakabreak lang din dahil for a better cause... isang mutual decision. may isa namang hindi pa rin maka-move on dahil mahal niya. may mag-asawa namang nahihirapan sa long distance relationship, at ang asawa naman ay nagbubuhay single. may isa namang parang nain-love kasi ang drama ay "pwede na yan," pero kung tutuusin, hindi niya alam kung mayroon ba silang patutunguhan.

hindi ko alam. hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit bigo sa love life, o kaya naman ay may struggle ang mga kakilala ko?

ewan ko, bakit ang pambihira sa love ay ang pagsasadula ng isang trahedya? karamihan ngayon ay wala na ring happy ending. tarantado kasi sa showbiz, uso ang annulment, uso ang divorce, uso ang live in, uso ang scandal... kaya sa public norm, nagiging social form na ang single parenthood, at mga broken marriage. bakit? kasi sari-sari na ang naiisip ng tao. andaming alibi gaya ng "hindi pa ready," "it's not you, it's me," we're not meant for each other," "we're just friends," at sandamak-mak pang mga kahayupang linya.

hindi sa bitter, pero putang ina nga, ako hirap na hirap makahanap ng babaeng tama, pero maraming tao sa mundo, swerte na sa syota/asawa, pinapabayaan pa.

uso pa ba ang pinaglalabang love? ano nga ba ang guage kung susuko ka na? hanggang kailan ba dapat mahalin ang isang tao?

sa ngayon napaka-choosy ko. hindi naman ako guapo?! ni masabing hot, hindi ko maririnig kung walang isang daan na naka ipit. bakit? kasi ayaw ko sanang makasakit ng tao. gusto ko kung sino ang susunod kong gelpren, huli na. kelangan ang babaeng ito siya na ang tama. kung hindi pa, may panahon pa para i-atras ang gera.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

i think they're at it again

some people just don't learn. can't live out of their comfort. after all the sacrifice you did, to the point of losing a part time job and life strategy, they're at it again.

if i were a congressman...

i wonder how much total money was donated for the victims of ondoy? i hope they'll not spend all to donations. if i were distribute those money, i will make a strategy that would provide long term benefit like reconstruction of their community, housing and livelihood.

the rich can get up easily than the poor, obviously.

i was supposed to go to VIDES' outreach in tondo, but, my migraine is quite moody. my head feels heavy. headache has always been a normal visitor in life's confinement.

i am writing a mock law that can help the country in waste management. recycling. oh boy i want that. i smoke, but, i suggest the government increase value added tax in tobacco and alcohol. people wouldn't like that proposal but, something has to be done. how about impounding old vehicles that emits black smoke.

i would like to propose something to fast food chains. i suggest you guys use recycled trays, plates and utensils. and also use recycled paper materials for take out orders... like starbucks.

i am a consumer of plastic. i don't know how to refrain from using it, because most of my favorite beverages use it as container. it would be wonderful if the companies would use an environmental alternative. well, we'll all benefit in the long run. at least we can slow down climate change, pollution, global warming, and we can prevent storms, hurricane and other nature's wrath.

my old mango tree

the only place i want to be is sit beneath that mango tree. and then what? i wanna sit there and think about my life. i love this ride!

all my life i learned how to get up when i fell down. i enjoy each and every struggle. i don't get mad easily. and i no longer believe in hostility to solve problems. i believe in democracy in life, and every good thing shall be done if it is settled not in a barbaric manner.

i believe in sacrifice, where we learn decision making. that if we risk, we can accept the consequences. i don't expect, but, i strive harder to achieve a goal. when i was a kid, i was taught by my parents to be independent. when you want it, go get it! you really have to want it. back then, when i want a bike, i have to provide good grades. and i did! i wanted a guitar, i have to work every during weekend in our store. and i did! we were never really spoiled by our parents. what they want from us, we give, so we were rewarded.

now that we are all grown ups, our Heavenly Father is that generous as well. if we want blessings, we pray. we may not get what we want, but, He provides what we need.

hmm... how about my prayers? i used to pray for lots of money to spend. and what did He provided me? a laptop and a dslr. what else? my skills. thank God i got some work. even if i lost one good part time due to unfortunate circumstances. i really enjoyed that part time, but, i needed to choose my priority.

having a job is really tough. we get tired easily. that is when you get strength from your inspirations. i have my family and my future as my energy boosters. i don't have a girlfriend to provide a certain spot. but, it's ok! no rush. God is just making the best love story for me.

i'm inspired. once upon a time this year someone inspired me to write children stories. i will send one as an entry. i hope i'll win. i love that story. it tells something about nature and friendship. just recently, i finished one. it's about an ordinary kid who saved his community from a possible wash out. inspired by ondoy.

i set my mood in writing a story. i imagine myself sitting beneath my favorite mango tree in our farm in sapul, calapan city. it's so peaceful there. eating mango dipped in alamang is really sensational.

all of my dreams are made of that tiny picture back in the province. i planted them and taking good care of them. i pray someday they'll grow and be that same mango tree that inspired me.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

another first entry - Ondoy

I am a murderer. I killed this blog a year ago, when I discovered posting blogs/notes in www.multiply.com have better viewership. Then I realized, some thoughts are better hidden than exposed.

As my first entry (again), I am writing about the recent phenomenon called "Ondoy" who stuck the Philippines by storm (literally).

I saw gazillion posts in Facebook. Why not?! People are affected, bothered, in deep shit, suffering, helping. Finally Manny Pacquiao has a rival in Ondoy. Finally something made us unite, in spite of political crap.

Last Thursday at the Megatent Relief Center, I saw different kinds of people. Disabled, normal, old young, ordinary peo
ple, actors and actresses. Dennis Trillo carrying boxes of goods, Bianca Gonzales (siya ba talaga yun?) with other volunteers.

Ondoy was really a showdown of intrigues. There was our beloved Freaksident flying to Iligan and Cagayan de Oro to attend some matters. Madam it's hell here in the Metro! And then I suddenly thought of somethings. Ma
ybe Madam Freaksident doesn't want to shadow her main man for next year's election, Mr. Teodoro. Besides she's in exit mode, no more drive to perform.

But, where the hell is Mr. Fernando? After being voted out by his party as the standard bearer for the top post, he wore his invisibility cloak and no where to be found. But, wait! I opened the radio, and there he was. Ad campaign, after the other. He is still running for President next year. But, has forgotten his duties as MMDA Chair. I dunno the exact details. But, I really can't feel Mr. PR lately. Aww maybe he really is depressed and disappointed. Hey! You have work to do!

Showbiz, people are pretty frenzy about what Gerald Anderson did to his neighbors. Helping here and there with his brother. Ye
p I believe it's kinda brave. Two thumbs up Jr.

The most controversial: Richard Gutierrez. People did not have the courage to mum on him. Being first in line to the rescue with his jetski, he only (allegedly) went to save fellow celebrity Christine Reyes, while ordinary people were crying for help.

Relief and rescue operations are still going on right now. Please help! Log on to your Facebook account and you'll definitely see information on how to help. Believe me, it pays well while on the field helping people in need.

Seriously, I hope it won't take disaster or any event to make us one. We are all heroes here (it's given), I hope we can be heroes not just after an event like Ondoy. We can be heroes everyday.